Saturday, November 24, 2012


Greetings, Family!

I have great news and great sales from BALANCE & HAIR BY NATURE popping off until December 22, 2012! They will be advertised on the bottom of this post, with my upcoming showcase at The Nuyorican Poets Cafe on December 15th. First and foremost, I must say I hope everyone had a safe, family-love-filled, fun, exciting and; delicious Turkey Day! I enjoyed the solitude of my home and the knowledge that my family was doing fine.

Side Note: From upstate NY to Canada, the Iroquois were also called the Six Nations: Oneida, Onondaga, Seneca, Cayuga, Tuscarora & Mohawk. The Iroquois Tribe was based on matri-lineage, consisting of the descendants, through females, from a single woman. Mohawks were called "The Keepers of the Eastern Door".

Like I wrote in my blog last year in November, I'm weaning myself from these ridiculous AmeriKKKan holy days. If you don't know the lies they've fed us for years, then your ignorance is your bliss and you choose to ignore the truth. The truth is NOT what the history books read, but the accounts of people other than white men who were land and business owners. In short, the Pilgrims traveled to get away from whatever they were dealing with and didn't know how to farm, irrigate or deal with the unknown, possibly hostile, lands they just rode onto, unannounced and uninvited. The Indians were peaceful, intelligent people who lived off the land by living in harmony with her. Indians showed the Pilgrims how to grow corn, get water from the ground and farm for continued sustenance. Indians were in tune with Nature and respected all living things.

In turn the Indians were slaughtered, given blankets filled with small pox and an intoxicant they never had before - liquor. Soon the white settlers took the land from the drunken, sickly and slaughtered Indians. This is the reason they gave thanks! They thanked the Indians for showing them how to live in harmony with the land by killing them and poisoning the very energy the Indians respected and maintained for centuries. The Pilgrims gave thanks because their hostile takeover was a success! 

I certainly don't need lies, parades, excess food or corny arts & crafts for youngsters in school to take away the disturbing images of the truth. I'm of the Iroquois Tribe/Six Nations Clan, a Mohawk to be exact, and still hold anger towards the people who effed up the world by killing off the Keepers of the Spirit & the Keepers of Mother Earth! Those that celebrate, were those who desecrated the earth and it's keepers. So I call this 3rd Thursday of November, Turkey Day! I'm thankful EVERYDAY! I don't need to cook a feast on a designated day to show how thankful I truly am! 

I'M THANKFUL that my Father, Sister & Nana are at Peace; my Mother is in good spirits and health; my family members are healthy and safe; my children are excelling in all aspects; my grandsun's prodigal status is stellar; everyday I wake up with two working arms, two working legs and all 5 senses in tact; there's food in my belly & in my home; there's warmth when it's cold and shade in the heat; music exists and I can contribute to it's beauty & creativity; I have the clothes on my back, the wisdom I've gained and the losses I've experienced that made me better & stronger; for each breathe I take... 

Then there's Black Friday! People use every possible means to purchase love at a discount. Store hopping in the early am before the sun rises to get a whole bunch of stuff, that will probably take you a year to pay off and you camp out after you stuff your face to be a devout consumer and catch the deals for Christmas gifts. And this is okay with people? The very next day, after you claim to give thanks for all you already have? WOW! For real, though...

Speaking of which...
HOLIDAY SALE ON BALANCE PRODUCTS from 11-22-12 through 12-22-12 
Purchase any BALANCE item for $10+ and you'll receive an exclusive oil blend 
Plus 15% off your first item purchased! Get your sale on & keep your BALANCE!


New customers: 15% off their 1st treatment! 
Old customers: 25% off their next treatment! 
Email for appointments & inquiries:

 And last but not least... Join ME and the wicked line up for... 


Try to give thanks and praise to The Most High everyday for what you have and cherish those who support, love and protect you from the elements, internal and external.  Peace & Love!

And Remember to...

 I'm ready! I'm ready! I'm ready! I'm ready! I'm ready! I'm ready! I'm ready!

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Eid Mubarak!!!!!

I give thanks for all the love and support I had welled up inside to distribute to others. I give thanks that my family is in good health and my Uncle Ernest in Dusseldorf, Germany, is doing fine after his surgery. I give thanks that when I run into old friends at celebrations and special events during the summer that they love and care for me as much as they did back in the day when we used to see each other more frequently. I give thanks that my children and grandsun are in good health mentally, intellectually, emotionally, physically, spiritually and like everyone else, we're all still working on the financial and economical. I give thanks that I have my 5 senses and common sense and all my limbs work. I give thanks that I woke up this morning and everything was groovy in my rest. I give thanks that my Daddy, my sister Patricia, my Nana, Anthony Tracey Higgs & Kwesi Hasani Nkosi are watching over me! I thank The Most High for every breath, my mental capacity to analytically think, be strong for me and mine and give me the power and fortitude to get up, put a plan together and get this paper for food, clothing and shelter.

I must say I don't fast from food during Ramadhan because of my bodily composition, but Ramadhan is not about not eating. It's a self-disciplinary tool to enlighten and strengthen your mind through fasting from negative thoughts, negativity in general, pessimism, cynicism, arrogance and stank attitudes. Simultaneously, you should be gaining and encouraging a meditative state of mind and soul, a concept of thinking before speaking and  being mindful of what and how you speak, righting the wrongs of your past and being charitable to any and everyone. Throughout this time, we should be reading our Holy Quran to enhance our calm, right mind and heart-felt spiritual elevation.

This was a very tough Ramadhan for me. So I've decided to start my Ramadhan over with fasting from all the things I NEED to fast from as of Monday 9am... Holy Quran in hand and good intentions overflowing. I was quite charitable during this Ramadhan from feeding the hungry to giving out money but I was pretty angry about a lot of other things. That was my test and as far as I'm concerned, I failed. I will make the test up with flying colors! WATCH! Eid Kariym! Eid Mubarak to all those who passed their test!

Saturday, July 21, 2012


I'm striving for Ma'at! I'm striving to regenerate and align my Chakras from head to toe. I aspire to successfully execute all that I have begun from projects to mindset; from physically devoting myself to my improved health with exercise & good eating to internally grasping the rope of Allah through prayer, meditation and musical instrumentation. My garden is blooming and I'm ready to eat the vegetables I grew on my terrace. I have a great test ahead of me and I'm going to get 100% plus extra credit! Feeling real UPful and determined to make all my dreams come true today! This is my 2012 Ramadhan pledge to myself! Stay positive! Stay focused! Stay spiritual! Stay Blessed! Stay Strong! Ameen!

Saturday, June 23, 2012

Still Blessed

When I email, call, leave voice messages, texts, BBMs, direct messages on facebook & exhaust all lines of communication but snail mail, and you don't have the consideration to respond to any of my efforts, you show me that you were never a true friend, you were never my 'sister' or 'brother' and you had ulterior motives even being in my cypher.

When I support you on every level, I become a little frustrated, knowing I put forth such an effort for a great cause at the time and because you're doin well, now, you don't even know me. I have to teach myself over and over that I cannot believe what people say because their actions always show the REAL.

I am still learning to ration out my compassion to those who prove worthy of having it because so many have taken advantage of my good heart and nurturing spirit. I've engulfed myself in helping others for several years, so I think it's time for me to do the same for myself.

I find that it's time to rejuvenate and love, pamper and concentrate on me for a minute. I also know that it is time to associate with a better - yes! I said better - caliber of people. People who practice what they preach so that I can literally see them in the process of showing and proving. I appreciate no nonsense men & women who are not only about their external business (clean appearance, career/entrepreneurial ventures, money-making, activism, etc.) but take pride in their individual internal business (hygiene, intelligence, beliefs,  convictions, goals, etc). I don't knock folks who have yet to find their focus and encourage them to continue looking and asking questions. I can rock with them, as well.

But, I'm letting loose the stragglers that I tend to keep around who have nothing to offer & don't call until they need something. I'm deleting more people from my social network accounts and phone. I've said this before and I've done it before. I can't change the soul I hold but every instance that I come to this realization, it's for a different chain of events...

Everyday is new and I appreciate the wisdom that comes with experience. I'm not bitter or slighted after viewing the full scope of things. I'll admit I am still a student in this lesson called life but I love the challenge of learning new things, watching new developments and comprehending the nuances of the human psyche. Life is what you make it & I'm blessed!

Sunday, April 15, 2012


I'm celebrating my 1st year of freedom from a man I loved. Things didn't end well and it didn't have to escalate to where it did, but... shit happens. He began talking to me like I was less than and became quite disrespectful when an argument ensued. Arguments got to be prevalent in the last 4 months of the relationship. We proclaimed love but his mouth's nastiness and his mood swings escalated to the point that he could NOT live under my roof!

There's but so much I can do to make a relationship work. I was in full wife mode - cooking, cleaning, inspiring, taking care of the bills, nurturing and supportive. While he was doing his very best to keep me to himself at the movies, dinner out, casinos, bars, or new & exciting places, he'd get upset when I did things with my children and or grandsun. He told me to tell him what I wanted and I did. But depending on how he felt that day, the objective was up for grabs.

I don't want to go into detail regarding the actual last day or the few solid reasons leading up to the separation only because, one: it's personal information I'm not ready to share in Cyberspace - a few real friends know all that happened ; and two: I don't want to draw a biased picture. He apologizes every time I speak to him. He knows what happened. I still love him but we can't be together like we want because I don't want to feel the way I do when he's upset. He still loves me, but feels really bad about how things went down.

Here are a few things I have to remember when I engage in a relationship with a man. You can't change a man but you can definitely make sure he treats you respectfully, lovingly, compassionately and as a partner or Queen/King on a pedestal. You choose which you'd like to be treated as pending your attitudes & the way you carry yourself to your partner. 
A relationship is a serious thing, especially if you are talking about marriage. A ring doesn't matter. A date for the wedding doesn't matter. What DOES matter is the fact that you find someone who you want to spend the rest of your life with and whatever come what may, you both will be happy to weather the storm, should it arise, together. 

You want to be secure in knowing that your significant other is just that - an other. They may have their own friends and their own interests, and you should be happy to be introduced to them all or not. That makes the respect mutual and genuine on both ends. 

When a disagreement turns into a heated argument, don't yell, don't start cursing if you weren't already and don't shut down in anger. Try to talk whatever it is out. Try real hard to NOT be disrespectful or say spiteful, hurtful things. Don't bring up old controversy to add on to the subject at hand. Don't walk out or go to bed angry. But do leave if you cannot control yourself and you feel a physical encounter may arise. There should be NO hitting, pushing, mushing, shoving, slapping, kicking or striking done by either of you!

Divulge your past ONLY if your partner can take it. If you were promiscuous before you met them and you plan to be monogamous now, it may look suspect and keep your partner suspicious. All those friends of the opposite sex are now suspected past booty calls and one-night stands. You should know how your partner will react and if you don't, you may want to divulge minimal information.

Don't put your partner over your children, whether they are your children's parent or not. As a parent, your children look to you for guidance and it's up to you to balance where and what you do pertaining to your children and your mate. I cannot tell you how to avoid this. I can only say, DO NOT let anyone other than yourself discipline (physically or verbally regulate) your children! Thoroughly explain why. You are the parent and your children may not know this person. You cannot expect your children to love your mate like you do. Their relationship needs to build on it's own foundation. That's a book in itself, but trust me when I say what I write!

I'm stronger now because I know what I want but more importantly what I deserve. I've always been helpful and I look out for people on general principle. I'm here for a greater purpose than to live in a bad situation and subject my children to that lifestyle. Real Talk!!

Just a few thoughts that ran through my mind. I could write a book about what I've been through... Wait! I am writing a book... Look for it! Enjoy your life and make the most of each & every day! May The Most High Continue to Bless U!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

April Showers Bring More Power!

I'm sure when you read my blogs, you're thinking, "She always has great things going on" or, "There's never a sad moment in her life". That's because I only post the good in my life in cyberspace. I think Cyberspace needs more positive situations and more upbeat information to read. I see the bullshit put into Cyberspace by miserable & spiteful people & I'm not comfortable with the cyber-world knowing the intimate details concerning my vulnerabilities, my dislikes, and or my weaknesses. It may be the focus of a blog for some; to share all aspects of their lives; but I've been through several things in my life as a participant as well as a spectator and arbitrator and I can honestly say, I'd rather not hash out my past errors or mishaps, but assist others to make better choices than I did. I've seen some bad situations and I've been in a few but my faith in The Most High as well as my intelligence, endurance and versatility keep my head up and my movement consistent. If you want to know ALL about me, buy my autobiography when it's completed. Soon...

With that said, I went to Florida last weekend, 3/30-4/1/12 to visit my mother. She was a little under the weather and I hadn't visited for a while, so I felt the immediate need to see her. I arrived at JFK 2 hours early and in hindsight, thank goodness I did! Everything is cool. I only had my knapsack, so I'm thinking, go through and get some coffee & read... better yet, get a glass of Pinot Grigio & watch the game.

Upon going through the metal detectors, I forgot to take off my jewelry. It's like my 2nd skin, so I stepped back out and removed my silver bangles; went through & it beeped again. I removed my rings and earrings & went through. It beeped again. I took off my belt but first stuck my bangles in a small container on top of my knapsack, in the giant plastic tupperware containers used for your belongings. Since I rang so many times, the next lady I approached after exiting the metal detectors asked me to squeeze my head wrap. I told her I can take it off. She said don't worry about it after I clearly remolded my gelee out of it's original shape. She pulled me to the side and wiped my hands with a round piece of paper. I thought nothing of it until she put it into a small machine on a table. The machine rang loudly & stated " EXPLOSIVES DETECTED"!

I burst into laughter but the security people didn't look too happy. I couldn't control the smirk that remained on my face because I knew I had no explosives. She asked, " Did you just put lotion on your hands. I said no. My head wrap has Frankincense oil on it. She proceeded to call another security lady to me, who explained she'd be taking me to a secluded room to do a more thorough search of my body.

Still smiling, (because this ish is funny to me), I was escorted to a small room, where another security lady explained how she was going to use the front of her hand to touch me places and the back of her hand to touch me other places. I told her I understood, keeping the laughter at bay, but still smiling. Once the extensive search was over and nothing was found, the apologies would not stop. I told them, "Don't worry about it. At least you're thorough!" They all smiled in relief and waved goodbye to me. As I put my kicks, belt and other accessories on, I noticed 2 of my bangles were gone.

I went over and alerted all the security that detained me and had them on search duty for my bracelets. Of course, no one looks for my belongings better than me, so I quickly found them on the floor underneath the belt that carries your belongings through the metal detector. They all looked relieved when I said I found them. I didn't think they wanted a wrongfully detained woman pressing charges for missing items after exiting the detectors.

I get to Florida, my brother and nephew pick me up. I have a blast, see family, meet new family, do my nephews hair, take pictures, go shopping, eat out, make a sweet potato pie, some crunchy slaw and a salad before I returned to Tampa International. Thank you to all my family that came to see me at Gramma's house! Thanks for the lift to the airport, Robin!

So I get to the airport 90 minutes early, to avoid any foolishness like what I experienced coming to Florida. As I'm taking off my rings, airport security tells me I can leave those on. I already took off two, so I kept it moving. After going through the detectors with ease, I continued to put my things back on. I get to my gate, have a seat, put on my hoodie - I had to rock a hoodie in FL for Trayvon! - put on my music and noticed, there's a ring missing. My silver ring with the huge Amethyst stone in it. My signature piece! I get up and go back to the area where we were searched and asked all of security if they'd seen my ring. Who would tell if they did, right? They gave me a lost & found ticket to call when I return to NY. Really? So if it's found, would they really return my beautiful ring? to NY? Nah!

I tweeted that I needed a pick up from the airport. Little did I know, when I made the reservation, my return flight came into Newark Airport, not JFK. Point of  information, folks: Always print out your reservation so you know where the hell you are going and returning! An ex love of mine from Jersey came through in the clutch and picked me up and drove me back home to Brooklyn. When I got upstairs and unpacked, I found my ring in my bag. My fast ass made sure my ring was safe but in the blink of an eye, I forgot in the airport.

That was my airport shinannigans ending on April Fools Day, which I now refer to as Marvin Gaye Day! April Showers bring More Power! This month's power source: my Sun's return from Japan; my dawtahz company on the come-up; my Daddy's (RIHP) bearthday celebratory dinner; my motion for a money judgement was granted; and yesterday, I dropped a few bars on a powerful track! I have to keep it positive because the powers that be do so much to keep me down. I gotta stay up and keep rising to the top!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

March is marching upright, ya heard!

It's been a fantabulous first quarter, so far! My grandSun is four! I see mad associates and peers doing their thing. I've witnessed true friend's livelihoods and passions soar! I must say, the good fortune does rise to the top... My baby girl is featured in and on the cover of Natural Style Magazine...

My Sun will be home in about a month from Japan. Thank you to my people who supported me on making that dream come to fruition. (THX, again!) As I get 'Wizer', I'm finding out who truly has my best interests at heart & who just calls because they need something... I'm good, though!

Spoke to my sister, Tomasia, yesterday! Witnessed the greatness that is INI Mighty LockDown in the city a few weeks ago. They're beyond Dope with the All-Stars! Not to mention, Ruddy Crew & Juggla were excellent! My brother, John Robinson, was  freestyling in honor of BIG last weekend, @ DROM for Mark de Clive-Lowe's CHURCH,  with DJ Spinna on the wheels! MAWU danced up a storm at Drom with B. Polite & Jean Grae was in the building! Then off to the Bogart (The Morgan) where I danced til I literally couldn't dance anymore. Saw old friends like Rammeh &Syl, Kim & Ruthy, Beast & Red, Serge & Kim Lightfoot, Herb Martin & Tyrone Francis, Vicki & Lisa, Ejoe & Derek Sampson... There were many others, I just can't remember off hand. It's just a beautiful first quarter, (plus my stack is still rising!) I'll keep you posted, I just had to let that out. Whew! A picture may say a thousand words but you can't always carry them. Memories feel good!

As a matter of fact, I have an upcoming performance @ the Nuyorican Poets Cafe this coming Saturday, March 17th, 2012... St Patty's Day! Yes I celebrate it because my Daddy is part Irish and I love the color green. If you can come through, do so...

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

How Have You Been? I'm So Thankful...

Thank you, Pri da HoneyDark, for making me look great in my latest photo shoot on SuperBowl Sunday! Thank you, Tajh, for doing my make- up! Thank you, Johari, for making G-Ma smile every single day, even when nobody else could! Thank you, DJ Evil Dee & Black Sparx, for always having my back when it comes to this Hip Hop phenomenon! Thank you, Hustle Brown, for them BJ runs! Thank you, Lisa, Afrika & RhoDesia for the nights of dancing! Thank you, Ced Hawkins, for the forever love! Thank you, Marj & Jeff, for keeping me optimistic when it comes to forever love! Thank you to the DJs that keep me spinning til the lights come on! Thank you, BCAT, for the instruction! Thank you to my children, Tajh & Koyami, for keeping me proud & knowing if I'm nothing else, I'm a great parent! Thank you to all who wished me a fabulous 42nd BearthStrong on February 7th, 2012! Thank you, Giggles, for the SuperBowl Sunday festivities! Thank you Momy & Dady for creating me! And thank The Most High for my current and expedient employment! Takbir! Allahu Akbar! Takbir! Allahu Akbar! Takbir! Allahu Akbar!

I'm going through a few changes with working 40 hrs a week, working out at home in the mornings, hustling my wears and grinding on my entrepreneurial adventures. It's becoming tiring because The Night Queen has a day job! LOL Even though I can work and play with 4 hours of sleep, that's not conducive to the work I need to complete. Now that I have a grip on my time schedule and I have the access to the equipment I need, I will be asking some of the DAWTAHZ for interviews starting in March. The show/movie/cd must go on!

Check out my food

Check out my Music

Check out my Jewelry

Check out my Background

Check out my Opinions here

Please LIKE my pages

Tuesday, January 17, 2012


May the Most High continue to guide us to being the best we can be! Takbir! Allahu Akbar!

How's 2012 treating you? How are you treating yourself? I need to be good to me in these stressful times. I need to be a little selfish & spoil myself with pampering moments and cuddly things, like my grandsun... and maybe a bigger chocolate sweetie... :) It's been a while but The Most High always puts you where you need to be, you just have to realize it for yourself before you get caught up in foolishness you have no business being in. Assistance from above only comes when you learn to assist yourself. And as a single parent who put herself through 2 colleges & graduated both, I know I'm excellent at helping myself.

Since I started my new job in October, I've been waking up at 6am, making Salaatul Fajr, (morning prayer before the sun rises), then I commence with my morning workout. I complete my routine with a refreshing shower and I get dressed to get my butt out the door to make my 8:30 city time clock in. I've always started my day early and ended my nights late. I don't do that anymore.  I have several benefits from this particular job and two of them are sleep and rest, which are 2 different things. I make time to relax now.

I enjoy my job because I'm a nurturer by default. My parents were great! It's easy to assist others because I'm a customer service kinda lady. Everyday, no matter what the energy is on the other side of the phone or call center desk, I make my clients leave my place of business with a smile on their face, knowing a little or a lot more than they knew before they got there. It's a great, fulfilling feeling, so I think I'll retire from this gig!

My freelance grind kept me awake and anxious, but I stayed progressive & productive. My redirection from my constant 'freelance' grind has become a smoother process because I don't sweat allocating 8hrs dedicated to early Monday through Friday. I make better, thought-out decisions because I have a clear head, clear intentions and clear scan of the bullshit! And 'THAT' I avoid with no problem now, because I am in a better place with a better person to take care of me... ME! If you don't give yourself the TEE off: Time, Energy & Effort to be your best & put forth 100% for yourself, who will? And how can you give 100% to anything you're involved in, including raising children, working or maintaining a healthy relationship, in any capacity? I'm doing 100%, easy!

Bout to go back in the studio to knock out some more gems & start my Spring line of jewelry. I'm just enjoying life to the fullest. Still the entrepreneur, still the great parent/grandma, grown children still on point, grandsun still a prodigy, still focused, but now I'm breathing more easy & enjoyin my breezy (demeanor).

Holla atcha girl for natural hairstyling, writing, MCing, hosting, dancing (yes, even with my bad knees, I still get it in!), modeling, vending, cooking and just good old vibrational upliftment! I'll always have that!